Life is a mystery

Sometimes I wish I knew things before they happen, or tell the future a la Raven style from the American TV series 'That's so Raven' but real life is different and we cannot always get what we wish for.

I've been through things I could have prevented if I knew better and I've wished to have had an opportunity before hand to alter them but life has a crazy way of teaching us a lesson. How crazy would it have been if we're foretold our predetermined destinies?

This is just wishful thinking in my part and God had a much greater purpose in mind by allowing us to do things out way. Things would be a little different than they are at the moment. I've come to learn that life teaches us lessons, it grows us to be-come better people, to make mistakes and most of all Life is a beautiful mystery.

Dear Future Self

How are you? How are things in the future? Are things as great as I've imagined? I hope you're living the life you've always dream't of, that I've always yearned for. You've worked hard to be where you are. At the moment things are't really that bad, you completed high school with a meritorious award, got your degree in record time and also completed your Honours. 

Academically, you’ve been doing very well indeed and with little effort. You know you can be an exceptional student but you doubt yourself and your abilities.

Hope you have dealt with that because you’ll mess things up for the both of us. You're a life long learner, you wish to study further and have your PhD by the time you turn 30. You’ve really out done yourself without much support from family. You lost your parents at 21, I know you [we] feel very alone, lonely and lost because you think no one is there for you and all you need is someone to love you for who you are. Don’t worry 'cause one day you’ll find someone that does. 

Stop being hard on yourself, mistakes happen. You are too much of a perfectionist that’s why you can’t have long intimate relationships. We have to deal with this right now!

I look in the mirror and envision how your life will be like, I see you haven't lost your zest for life. Your love for beautiful things see me lusting for great things beyond me imagination. Things we'll enjoy and you'll leave for the future generation. Your smile is perfection, like you do not know a sad day. You have 'seen' it all. The pain of losing loved ones has seen you creating relationships and hoping they last long. Lost opportunities have made you kinder and spiritual. I hope you haven't lost touch with the man above, the creator of heaven and earth. I see you looking immaculate in your suit, stepping out off of your corner office to enjoy a cup of coffee with a client to talk business. You enjoy these type of things because you've worked hard to be where you are. You like your coffee strong and black, you tell them its because it personifies the things you've come across.  Your walk to your fancy auto mobile is like a dance of a well trained performer, the tap tap of your shoes is music to my ears. Your black chariot awaits you, 'Your Highness'. You await the end of day with baited breathe as you'll finally spend time with the ones you love. You have everything you've ever wanted and needed. It amazes me how you still have time to help your 'brothers and sisters'. Your humbles is a thing of wonder to a man looking in from the outside. Your close relationship with God is humbling. You still get down your knees and pray for everything and everyone. Your forgiveness for life's little faults have seen you start businesses with people whom everyone have thought you were enemies.My greatest desire is to be with you and enjoy every little thing you have, have the pleasure of having a one-on-one conversation with you as to get your old age wisdom. Your advise will be highly appreciated at this given moment, old mate. 

From Me

Your Past, Present and Future!